Today is Becki's Birthday - she's 25 now, just like me! ;)
I never did post about my Birthday, so I'll do that now. Easter was very early this year, so Good Friday happened to be the 21st. Matt gets Good Friday as a Holiday, since the refineries observe it, so he was able to take the day off without using any of his vacation time. Very nice for us. He stayed home with the kids while I went off to observe my tradition of a spa day with friends. Becki, Deanna, Natalie and I all went to Cameo Day Spa for facials, scalp treatments and pedicures. It was a lot of fun. The facial was the best I ever had, and the scalp treatment was amazing. They spend 30 minutes working grape seed oil through your hair and massaging your scalp - heaven! After we were done at the spa we went to Nordstrom for lunch at the cafe - even though we all looked a mess with incredibly greasy hair and no makeup. Then we shopped for a bit before heading home. That night we all went out to dinner at a restaurant called Pine, recomended by Killian and Andrea. After we went back to our house for cake and ice cream. I made carrot cake and Becki made me a chocolate cake. The group (along with a contribution by Matt) gave me a new IPod Nano. It's very cool, I can't wait to use it. I still haven't put any music on it, but I'll get it done this week. Matt and the kids gave me a Flip Video camera. I'm very excited to use it. Tessa has a Kindergarten program on April 17 - the perfect place to try it out!
It was a nice Birthday. Though it also marked the deadline I set for myself to decide whether or not we'll be having a 3rd baby...and it came and went without a decision.
I'm still completely undecided. Matt asked about it last Sunday - the day he left for Wyoming for a week. I told him that I really couldn't decide, that I still have an urge to have another, a longing, at least 50-75% of the time, but that I can think of a lot of reasons that we should be done. He asked "Like what?" I was already very emotional because he was leaving, so I told him it wasn't a good time to talk about it and that we could discuss it when he got back.
While he was gone I made a 2-page con list. No need to make a pro list...a baby is it's own pro. Anyway, I managed to pretty much talk myself out of having a 3rd. Meanwhile, Matt spent some serious time thinking about another one, and talking to Sterling about he and Deanna having one of their own. I think in the process of trying to talk Sterling into having one, he talked himself into it. He came home ready to go. "schedule the reversal!" So we're at an impasse once again. This one feels very familiar. In the past it was he who was ready - before me - to have both kids. This time he's using my own argument against me "we'll never regret having another." Well, sure...but that doesn't mean we WILL regret not having another. It doesn't mean it's the right thing to do.
At this point I really don't know what we'll do. I think we'll give ourselves at least until the end of the month and see how we're feeling then. Maybe I'll be back to wanting one. Maybe his gung-ho attitude will have changed.
If we DO end up going ahead we'll want to schedule the vasectomy reversal soon. But I don't want to start trying to get pregnant until January. I'd really like to take another trip this coming Winter, February-ish. If we plan to have another baby I think that will be doubly important, because we won't be able to go again for some time.
I wish I wish I wish that I had a clear feeling one way or another. I keep waiting, but I'm still undecided.
1 comment:
Oh,if only it was a nice simple decisio, huh?
Most days, Ryan says he's good with no more kids. But almost always when I say "okay, maybe I do want another" he'll say "I was kind of thinking about that too".
I wonder if we'll ever really decide...or if the kids will just get older, and it just won't happen.
Ya know.
Sounds like a great birthday.
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